I didn't even know it existed or was taking place in my life until I started looking back to all I have done in my life... some things totally surprising to me.. I mean, God knew that is what I wanted and I would pray for it but could it be that me thinking about it and being so excited about it, helped?
I was 15 years old praying for my first boyfriend to come find me.. he was already 18 and engaged to some girl. I used to imagine how he would just show up one day and tell me, the wedding is off and I want you to be my girlfriend. This is silly as I had never even kissed a boy before but yet I had imagine how it was all going to be. One day out of the blue he shows up and guess what?...the wedding was off and we started dating... of course behind my parents back. I was such a little girl and it took him a couple of months to realize that after him being with an older woman.. holding hands was not going to be enough so we decided that he needed to come back when I was older. My dad being a very strict father and a cop encouraged him to not even try anything else ;) So I went on with my life knowing that he would be back when I was 18... and he did. Of course by then I had a high school boyfriend who I adored but we still ended up getting back together because that is what I had planned and written on my diary, prayed on and deep in my heart wanted. Later I realized it was not what I wanted and we both moved on happily.
Tired of dating guys that bought me anything I wanted and had nice cars and motorcycles, I, one day said... God I just want a guy that truly loves me and will love me for the rest of his life and I don't care about money or if he has a car or buys me things... I just want to be loved! and so he came... no car, no money but loved me with all his heart. It was true love regardless of all the drama and it was sooooo hard to let go. We got married twice, divorced twice and had two boys.. we loved each other until the day he died even though we were not together as we were just not compatible in many things and we had decided to just be friends.
I then said.... I need to move back to the U.S. before my kids have to go to school. I refuse to cross the border every day to take them to school.. and I want to buy because I refuse to pay rent. Of course I had terrible credit, no money and I was a retail manager with low pay. But I called a sign I saw on the street one day and the lady helped me fix my credit but I needed $4,000 dollars... now for someone that was making 15,000 a year that amount was unrealistic to save. specially a single mom that was getting no child support... but I ended up getting an insurance settlement for that amount that same month and there it was!!... I bought my first property in the US.
Later I started dating the principal of my son's school. I thought he would be the perfect step father.. who better than someone that had chose to work with kids for a living.. right? But there was a problem, after dating for a while he said... I can't marry someone that has no college degree or makes less money than me. I was heart broken... I think it was his way of encouraging me to go back to school, because he was all about education.... but I said... I tell you what... I wont go back to school but I will make more money than you... you will see! I remember his reaction to my statement... it was not of disbelief it was more like an encouraging smile.. he said.... well good, do it and we will get married and winked his eye. I am assuming he figured he will eventually convince me to go back to school to make it happen. But one day a Broker showed up at the Bath and Body works shop where I worked.. he was so impressed with my selling skills that he wanted me to go work with him selling Real Estate. 6 months after that I was selling Real Estate and 22 months after I was making double what my boyfriend was making. And yes he did give me a ring and I decided not to get married after all.
Many things after have happened the same way.... I say I want them, I take action and somehow they work out even if they seem unrealistic. I pray for it, I ask God and tell him why I want it.... but now I truly believe it and am positive about it.
I also realize that many things I don't even ask for... I some how think that deep in my heart I don't believe I deserve them.
There was a time that I even believed I was not worthy enough to accept God in my heart.... but a lady from Macomb Michigan who I had never met... called me one day and walked me through the process over the phone.... Now that to me is amazing.... and since then I have been aware he lives in my heart, even though I now know he was always there just waiting for me to acknowledge him.
So YES I believe that I attract what I put my mind into, as long as I am willing to do the work... God will be there to move mountains to make it happen and his universe will conspire to make it work out. So I will continue this awesome journey of my life but now that I know my positive thoughts do have a purpose .... I will have a closer communication with God about things I want in my life
♥ Fabiola G.
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